that isn’t stereotypically ‘BEAUTIFUL’ and do you a) Pass Judgement, b) laugh c) Pity them? If you do….then…..have you ever thought that the same people wouldn’t do the same to you?
When people want to know more about me I struggle for words, I don’t even like talking about myself - but now I’m laying it all down on the screen for you to read, if you don’t care then that’s fine because neither do I.
I AM:
I’m curvy, I have big boobs, my skin is blemishy, I still get blackheads, I have dark circles under my eyes, I feel i have to wear make up if I am going out as I am afraid of being called UGLY as I look like someone from halloween first thing in the morning - I worry about people passing comments or looking at me with pity - I always think that as I have deep-set eyes, they make me look tired and I wear lots of eyemake up to make them look smaller. I have endemontriosis which can make me feel ‘fat’ and sluggish and sometimes I can’t fit my 12/14 clothes. I don’t diet or exercise because I am LAZY.
BUT.
I have accepted this. - Still reading?
I am now 28 nearing the age of 29 though people say I still look 22-24 which, annoys me as I feel they percieve me as childish or immature, when I feel that I am a lot more maturer than people would imagine or as my outgoing personality would portray me. I still like to dress in bold colours and make statements with my clothing, hair and make up, but that is just me and my own individuality.
I have a good friend network and plenty of people to socialise with but sometimes I feel lonely and I need attention or someone to rely on to ALWAYS be there but that’s because I am also a little bit SELFISH and have my own priorities, I hate being stood up or cancelled on but I do like to think that it’s not that I’m not worth bothering about or worth the effort….sometimes.
I have a family who are very supportive and loving. I don’t like my job but I have worked there for four years and I work there to keep myself with a roof over my head and food on my plate and fresh water. I don’t have any major commitments or responsibilities like children or caring for anyone, other than my cat. This is a good thing as it makes me feel FREE. However I sometimes feel SAD as I don’t want to ‘be left on the shelf’.
I haven’t had the best track record with relationships and it’s not always THEIR fault, I can be DIFFICULT, I can be NEEDY, I can be MOODY….but sometimes, it is their fault. I do believe that there is someone out there who will love me for ME. as i am never going to change myself for ANYONE. I am honest, funny and charming and outgoing. I am also moody, opionionated, selfish, needy and possesive.
HOWEVER, I am VERY LUCKY with what I’ve got. My health. My sight. My hearing (just). I’m alive. I am REAL and this is me.
This is what I would call a ‘Healthy perception’ of myself. I know who I am, but do you? Should you really judge a person by the way they look?